Wednesday, September 2, 2009

What's A Girl To Do?

What's a girl to do when it is one of those days? You know what I'm talking about, those days when your face breaks out, you have nothing to wear, you are acutely aware of the fact that you gained a pound, and life just seems plain out cruel in everyway possible. What's a girl to do when those days start stretching into weeks?
In the past couple weeks, wedding stress has turned my face into something that just stresses me out more every time I look at it, late nights have turned my emotions into ticking time bombs, I resprained the foot that I sprained two years ago, and it seems that there are people out there who delight in tearing down the world that I am trying so hard to keep intact in the midst of all this change. In short, I have become a zit-faced basketcase, seriously entertaining the thought that all who look upon me will cringe at the sight and, if that doesn't scare them away, my volatile, irrational emotions will. In tears, I cried to God for answers and He, as usual, delighted to answer me.

Me: "Why God, did you make me like this? How can everyone still care about me and tell me I'm beautiful, especially my fiance? I'm so not! Is everyone really that blind?"

God: What if (God always seems to answer me with a question) I am trying to tell you that you are beautiful through them? What if they are seeing you as I see you? Can you accept that I think you are beautiful in every way? Can you accept that I want others to see you as I do and through them, I am expressing myself to you?

God always knows what to say to get through to me:)